(This is Alexandra’s story about her daughter.)
When I found out this movie was being made I was so happy. And still am.
My husband and I lost our daughter November 1, 2008. I had gone into labor the evening before around 8 pm. Contractions were not constant and I thought they were Braxton-Hicks contractions. I took a warm bath and went to bed.
The next morning around 1:30 they started up again and would not subside. We knew it was time. I went to the hospital and our suspicion was confirmed. Our daughter was coming. I was in labor all day and wasn’t dialating. I had to be given two doses of the epidural medication. The time came to start pushing. I had my husband, two of my best friends, a nurse and the DO in the room. I pushed for what seemed like forever. The nurse had to switch out the fetal heart monitor and I wasn’t told why. The DO told me that I had about an hour left of pushing, our Angel wasn’t coming as fast as I hoped. I was given the option of pushing longer or having a cesarean and I chose the latter. 25 hours in labor, I was exhausted.
I started to become worried when I was literally run through the halls so fast that when the bed was turned it would hit walls. We arrived in the OR and I was put to sleep. I didn’t understand what was going on or why my husband wasn’t allowed in their with me. I awoke very groggily, and to my husband crying inconsolably. I knew before anyone told me what had happened. I don’t remember much after that until the next day. I only got to spend a short time with her before she was sent to receive an autopsy. It didn’t come back with anything conclusive, her heart had simply stopped before she could be delivered.
This movie is more than just a movie, it shows people how hard it is to lose a child. I would like people to know that yes we are grieving and no we will never stop. We should not be ignored or treated as if we have a disease. We lost a huge part of our future. We lost our first child on what should have been the night that happily changed our lives forever. We thank you so very much for giving this issue a loud voice and for being brave enough to show people things that no one should ever have to endure.
Thank you again.
-Alexandra
Thank you Alexandra!